True Happiness

I can honestly say that I have discovered true happiness. I have reached a point in my life where I am content with who I am and how my life is going. I am 35 yrs old. I am about 30 lbs overweight (my husband insists it is extra skin), I have 10 kids (who I will talk about in another blog), and a pretty decent man. hahaha (Just kidding, honey)

My entire life I believed that if I had money that I would accomplish happiness and everything would be OK. What a load of crap! I don't have any more money now, then I did back then. What's the difference? I strive to be better but accept the things I cannot change.

I don't like to shop. I really don't like going out to places with large groups of people. I like being at home with my family just hanging out. The other night I had the most wonderful night. My husband and I put the kids to bed and took turns reading a book out loud to each other. It was so nice. You would think that we would run out of things to talk about. Sometimes we do and we end up having the same conversation over and over again. As crazy as this may sound even though it is the same conversation I learn more about him each time.

I enjoy my children. I will admit that since I went back to school I don't see them as much as I would like. We tease, we disagree, we laugh but regardless we are doing it together. Ihave promised more time with them after I graduate. I hope they haven't out grown me by then.

My husband was talking to a man at church today and the man was complaining about living paycheck to paycheck, never having money to go do things. He was under the belief that we are eating out all the time and always shopping. When my husband told him what life is really like for us he was absolutely amazed. He told my husband we are too happy to be living that way.

William comes from a family that has always had money. He owned a business that gave him a household income of $10,000 a month. But he has never been happy. Every member of his family has said they have never seen him more relaxed and happy in all his life. When I met him he was very negative and uptight. I try to help him see things a little more positively. (I get that from my mom.) Right now this is the least amount of money he has ever had and he will tell you he is happy....for now. Of course we are working towards careers with more income. With 10 kids we HAVE to, but we will enjoy not scraping every week.

It's just nice to not say "When we make more money things will be good then". Instead I say "Things are good, but they are only getting better."

My boss

My boss is a fat man at a buffet! He is constantly putting too much on his plate. When he realizes he is doing too much he then deligates out his projects. By this time we already have some very frustrated customers. When a deal falls apart he immediately blames whoever was trying to fix the problem. (Most of the time that person is me.)

Recently he agreed to pay my an hourly wage plus commission (before I was strictly commission). In doing so he has designated me his "personal secretary". My name is now Franklin (as in day planner) because I am responsible for reminding him of all his appointments, writing his contracts, and following up with his customers via Thank you cards, etc.

I wouldn't mind the job so much but the man will actually have enough nerve to accuse me of slacking on the job. He actually asked me one time "What else do you have to do?" I almost quit that day!

He is the most absent minded man I have ever met!! You will tell him something and 10 minutes later he has forgotten the entire conversation, but then will get irritated with you when you repeat yourself. "OK, OK, OK." After you begin your sentence.

When he makes a mistake it's not a little error that can be fixed or slightly covered up. It's pretty big! And everyone is expected to ignore it and go on. However, if an employee makes a minor mistake they are pulled into the office and lectured for a good 30 minutes. He is infamous for saying that if anyone puts his family in danger that he becomes a bear and will fight like crazy. The day he said that to me I looked at him and said, "What in the HELL are you talking about? I have 10 kids! I have far more to lose in all of this then you do." He hasn't lectured me since then.

There is another side to this man. He has family values that are very hard to find. He has his wife on such a pedestal that you would think she is dying from a rare disease. But being a woman working with him is something completely different. He tends to act as if there isn't a brain in a woman's head and yet he is proven wrong daily by myself and our bookkeeper.

He is frustrating to say the least and I look forward to the day that I graduate so that I can be paid more to be treated like an idiot. hahahaha

An average day

My average day begins at 5:30am. I get up and excercise for 3 minutes on my eplical machine. (If any of you have ever tried this machine you will understand why it has only been for a few minutes.) Actually I am up to 10 minutes now and think I am the queen of the world.

I shower at 6am, get dressed and by 6:30am I am waking up kids and getting them ready for school. When we have all 10 kids the boys shower the night before and girls in the morning (due to the hair factor). I am out the door by 6:45am and in class by 7:15am.

I finish school around 2pm (classes I just finished were Anatomy, Chemistry, and Respriatory 101). I leave school and go straight to work. I work for a ski boat dealership. I will talk about my boss in another blog. Believe me, this man is blog worthy and that's not a compliment. LOL

I work until 6:30pm and head straight home. Lately I have not had to make dinner. I think the pressure from my mom and his dad my husband is catching the big hint to help out. I sit down and listen to my kids day (30 minutes for each child, sometimes a little more) and review homework. Boys head into the shower and girls get ready for bed. By 8:30pm they are all in bed.

From 8:30-10pm I study. Sometimes William will sit in the room with me but I had to stop that because he wants to discuss what is going on with Jennifer Aniston, Brad Pitt, and Angelina Jolie. I just don't have the time for that . So now he will either sit quietly and read or he will watch Dr. 90210.

That is my average day. I am currently on a week break before the new term begins and I would LOVE to say I have free time but now I get to catch up on Dr appts and teacher conferences that I have neglected for the last 16 weeks. Not to mention my absurd desire to be the best I can be and have chosen to do a book report for Microbiology (for extra credit) in case I bomb one of my quizes.

I remember the days when I was soooo bored and would pray for something to do. I can honestly say I wish I would've had more confidence in my abilities when I was younger. I wouldn't be trying to compact so much in now. But, that's how I am. I will say this, though. As hard as this may be for some people to believe (mom and dad) I have been forced into being far more organized. I was actually complimented on how organized I am now. Boy, I sure have people fooled.

First Day of blogging

This is my first time blogging. My dad, the rambling irishman, started this quite a few months ago and due to much pressure, and tons of teasing, and I am now beginning my own blog. I do this more to be able to comment to HIS blogs. (That's way more fun.)

I am a 35 yr old mother of 10 kids. 4 that I have given birth to, and 6 that are my step children.
My husband and I have been through quite a few trials since the day we met and we are still trying to work them out. Divorce is a nightmare, but being married to an abusive partner is much worse. But, I will honestly say I am very happy in my life. My husband, William, has an incredible talent for diffusing my moments of anger and I love and appreciate him for it.

I am currently going to school full time, working full time and have my kids 75% of the time. Yes, all 10 of them. I pray for the day that I will have all 10 under my roof and hopefully heading in the right direction.

I am the oldest daughter of 6 children and the gray hairs on my father's head. I was one of those kids that thought if it was possible I was going to try it. The only thing I have NEVER done and will NEVER do is drugs. I haven't even entertained the thought. Alcohol is a different story, but I have overcome that temptation. (Even if my parents don't think I have.)

This is a brief overview of who I am. I will begin blogging everyday and give you a little more insight on me and my family as I go.