True Happiness

I can honestly say that I have discovered true happiness. I have reached a point in my life where I am content with who I am and how my life is going. I am 35 yrs old. I am about 30 lbs overweight (my husband insists it is extra skin), I have 10 kids (who I will talk about in another blog), and a pretty decent man. hahaha (Just kidding, honey)

My entire life I believed that if I had money that I would accomplish happiness and everything would be OK. What a load of crap! I don't have any more money now, then I did back then. What's the difference? I strive to be better but accept the things I cannot change.

I don't like to shop. I really don't like going out to places with large groups of people. I like being at home with my family just hanging out. The other night I had the most wonderful night. My husband and I put the kids to bed and took turns reading a book out loud to each other. It was so nice. You would think that we would run out of things to talk about. Sometimes we do and we end up having the same conversation over and over again. As crazy as this may sound even though it is the same conversation I learn more about him each time.

I enjoy my children. I will admit that since I went back to school I don't see them as much as I would like. We tease, we disagree, we laugh but regardless we are doing it together. Ihave promised more time with them after I graduate. I hope they haven't out grown me by then.

My husband was talking to a man at church today and the man was complaining about living paycheck to paycheck, never having money to go do things. He was under the belief that we are eating out all the time and always shopping. When my husband told him what life is really like for us he was absolutely amazed. He told my husband we are too happy to be living that way.

William comes from a family that has always had money. He owned a business that gave him a household income of $10,000 a month. But he has never been happy. Every member of his family has said they have never seen him more relaxed and happy in all his life. When I met him he was very negative and uptight. I try to help him see things a little more positively. (I get that from my mom.) Right now this is the least amount of money he has ever had and he will tell you he is happy....for now. Of course we are working towards careers with more income. With 10 kids we HAVE to, but we will enjoy not scraping every week.

It's just nice to not say "When we make more money things will be good then". Instead I say "Things are good, but they are only getting better."