My 2 Husbands

After many years of unhappiness and abuse I divorced my first husband. He was never affectionate with me, in fact he found pleasure in making me angry so that he had an excuse to be abusive. (This gives him the opprotunity to blame me for his outbursts) He is short tempered, loud, lazy, and full of crap 90% of the time. He felt that because we were married he didn't need to continue impressing me. Hell, he never impressed when we were dating. For the most part he is a decent dad. I would never go as far as to say he is a good dad, but he at least acknowledges the kids and spends time with them.

My husband now is the opposite. The day we met face to face he told me he knew I was to be his wife. He told me had prayed for me. He hugs me, kisses me and is always wanting to talk to me and spend time with me. He NEVER tells me he was better off single and even though he doesn't buy me things I know he loves me very much. I know that if I am tired or need a to be held he is more then willing to do it without expecting any kind of "favors" in return.

When we first met he was very negative and hard towards people. I have seen huge changes in him in the last two years. He isn't as negative and actually speaks kindly about people who have hurt him. He still has his moments, but he NEVER speaks ill of me. He has me on a pedestal that I am so afraid I can't live up to.

Since I got remarried my ex-husband has been able to be much more civil and focused on taking better care of our kids. We even go to dinner together, sometimes. My husband is very good about being kind and patient with my ex and understands the importance of being civil for the kids sake. When we have his kids over he always tries to have one on one time with each of them so that they know how much he loves them.

We have a little girl together that he has been taking care of while waiting to start school. He acts like she is a pain but I can see the special bond they have together. I would've been jealous but I am actually very happy that they are so close.

There is a huge difference in my two husbands and I am so grateful for William and the influence he has in my life. I am now in school and I am able to be myself and he accepts me. I believe that is what has built my confidence and I have been as successful as I am.